Monday 16 March 2015

Test results part 2

My latest test results show the third consecutive increase in circulating cancer cells. This time all genetic markers for metastasis are switched on. 

This doesn't mean that I have metastases - it just means that my risk is higher. To put it into perspective, conventional tests would most likely still show No Evidence of Disease.

Initially I was in shock. Since the last test, 4 months ago, I've been on a very rigid vegan, sugar-free, low carb diet, certainly the strictest I've ever been. I'd started a new protocol including medicinal mushrooms, curcumin and flax oil on top of all of the usual supplements. I've been doing daily coffee enemas, juicing and smoothies. I've walked and moved more than ever before. I fully anticipated a reduced cell count. So much for expectation!

My usual knee jerk reaction would be to tighten up even more, but this time something new has happened. I've decided to stop pushing harder in what is starting to feel like self punishment. This has never been a battle, and I don't want it to start feeling like one.

I've sat in my fear, allowed it to wash over me, examined my anxiety about possible progression of disease, about death. 

My wise husband sat with me on night one, the night of tears and no sleep. He told me that I need to stop thinking about why I NEED to be here, and start thinking about why I WANT to be here. Love that! I seem to have set myself a remarkable list of obligations to remain earth bound. Home educating our kids is a huge responsibility, one which I feel I need to see through. Being a Mum is a 'thing' in itself. Leaving young children and the implications of that was not what I signed up for. But I'm not afraid of death, and the more I sit with these feelings, the more I understand that I can do my best, but I cannot force healing.

On day two I cleaned the house as a distraction. What occurred to me during my frenzy was that I have to LIVE until I die. Not just exist. Taste the sweetness of life. Enjoy food. Travel. Allow myself to look forward. Release expectation. 

On day three I started running. I realised that I've never used my body like this. It felt good. My lungs burned, legs ached. With every step I envisaged cancer cells exploding. I started to feel positivity returning. I felt closer to God, more connected. I started to trust that the universe has a plan for me. It may not be the plan I had for myself, but it's all OK.

In the meantime, normality has resumed. I have a loose plan. I'm going to repeat the Chemosensitivity test I had in 2011 to see how 'my' (I hate to own them, but I guess they are mine) cancer cells have changed, and which natural compounds might impact them, with a view to either reducing my count or reversing the (weakly) positive changes that have made them likely to metastasise. Targeted therapy seems sensible. Supplements are expensive. Taking as much guesswork out of the equation as possible makes sense. 

Until the renewed protocol reveals itself, I've vastly reduced my supplemental regime. I'm giving my liver a break. I'm enjoying nightly saunas and liver packs along with coffee enemas and positive visualisation. Today I enjoyed some dark chocolate - it never tasted so good! I'm still working towards balance. I'll let you know if I ever get there!

In what may seem like a counter-intuitive move, I've also decided to repeat the Minimal Residual Disease Test less often. Every test creates stress, and most results seem to invoke shock. Shock puts the body into fight or flight mode. In this state I'm not absorbing nutrients and I have no immune system! Acupuncture has been really helping me to reset, but it's a destructive cycle.

Fear is gone and this feels like a good place to start again from. My mind is strong, my body is becoming strong. It's all good. My best is good enough. I love myself and life is great. 

Saturday 7 March 2015


The pile of books-to-read on my bedside table never seems to get any smaller! The latest one that I can't put down is 'Tooth Decay. Heal and Prevent Cavities with Nutrition' by Ramiel Nagel. It details the ways in which diet and nutrition can impact dental health. 
To paraphrase: Each tooth contains about 3 miles of microscopic tubes called dental tubules which are filled with a fluid similar to cerebral spinal fluid. Tubules also contain parts of tooth-growing cells, nerves and connective tissues. Microscopic droplets of nutrient-rich solution from our blood are pumped through these tubules. The hypothalamus stimulates the Parotid gland (located in the jaw) to release the movement of mineral rich dental lymph though the tubules to remineralise teeth. Are you ready for this? A diet heavy in SUGAR creates a blockage in this signalling process. 

So, we can heal cavities, and re-mineralise teeth naturally with a diet rich in phosphorous, Omega 3, and vitamins D3 and A? Potentially, yes! I'm not sure about you, but this is news to me. Again, I'm learning how inter-connected every part of our body is. The current reductionist medical paradigm has programmed us to believe that each body part works in isolation, and yet nothing could be further from the truth. When did we become so disconnected from our physicality, or from the simple truth that the food we eat is what nourishes us, allowing our bodies to function optimally?
Furthermore, we have been taught that it's OK to eat whatever we like, as long as we clean our teeth with (poisonous) fluoride, rinse with (carcinogenic) mouth wash, and fill cavities with (toxic) mercury.

Dental health is intrinsically linked to overall health. Dr Thomas Rau found a link between root canals in certain teeth and breast cancer. I've never had a root canal (and nor would I) but it makes perfect sense to me that as our teeth are connected to the body's meridians and blood system, so the decay or infection of a tooth could absolutely have an effect on a distant body part or organ. In less specific terms, bad tooth health impacts the body in a more general way by placing a heavy burden on the immune system.

So many illnesses are caused by heavy metal toxicity, mercury being the most prevalent, and indicated in Cancer, Autism, Motor Neurone Disease and Alzheimers to name but a few. This toxin is incredibly difficult for the body to process and excrete, resulting in much of it being stored in fatty tissues, like those of the brain. It's presence directly affects the central nervous system. Dental amalgams account for 90 percent of the body's mercury burden, but be aware, there are plenty of environmental sources of heavy metal toxicity which also need addressing. Sea food is a major culprit, and shockingly, mercury released from crematoriums also poses a problem! 

A couple of years ago I had two amalgams removed by a holistic dentist, and replaced with composites. It took me three years into my healing journey to feel physically strong enough to deal with any fallout, as removing mercury, and subsequent chelation, can liberate heavy metals which tax the body. Always look for a dentist who uses up to date removal techniques such as rubber dams, and ideally glutathione IV's. Following amalgam removal, I followed a strict protocol of chelation therapy, and I still take chlorella daily, which is a fantastic heavy metal detoxifier. Composites hold their own challenges for the body as many contain plastics, and leach xeno-oestrogens. I used kinesiology to test for the safest match for me. 

The body is programmed to heal itself. What happens when you cut yourself? An innate process unfolds. However, a poor diet, stress, or toxicity interferes with every process in the body, while a mineral rich diet, heavy in vitamins and live food can help to create the foundations for repair.